| america, fuck yea! |
[Nov. 18th, 2005|11:28 am] |
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Well, here i am in our nation's capital! DC!!!! america, fuck yea! haha...seriously though, i'm here in lovely DC visiting the best girl in the world, Julieanne, here at GW. scary how much it looks like BU. the city is awesome and we've been having a blast so far. Julieanne has a single and it's huuuge! and while she's at class i frequently take advantage of her bathtub and catch up on my cosmo ;) such a girlie girl, i know. today we're heading back to georgetown (pretty much the newbury street of DC, for all you hott bostonians, mwah) for shopping round #2. Yesterday i finally found the kick ass shoes i've been looking for at ALDO, oh how i love shopping, thankfully i have a VISA :) i bet most of you who know my shopping habits are thinking, rachel mielcarek should not have a visa, but hey so far (to even my surprise) i haven't missed a payment for a bill, my car, or anything, i am soo on top of my money, impressed, huh?
Okay so let's get down to it, i haven't updated since March. A hell of a lot has happened since March, I've begun to start a new chapter in my life, rachel part II. Rachel part II was supposed to start last year, freshman year at BU, but things didn't quite work out the way i wanted them to. To make a long story short, i loved BU and living in Boston was the best everr, but academically they wouldn't allow me to do what i wanted. I wanted to major in exercise science and minor in dance, but the schedules conflicted and i would have to end up staying at BU for an extra year, and have to go during the summer which is bullshit, cause something as simple as those two major/minor should not take that much extra time. and i was putting out all that money for something i should be able to get done in four years. I was doing a lot of thinking and had an epiphany! well i guess you could call it that.
okay here it is, i realized that i need to be dancing everyday of my life for the rest of my life. I knew it was my passion but i thought through college i could get by with doing a dance team and taking classes- well that wasn't the case. I wanted to double major at a school that had a decent dance program. part II to the the epiphany...i was in steve's dorm and i was watching the discorvery channel, and they were showing a baby giraffe being born and these animals were just so fascinating. They also did a special on orangutans and how they're getting pushed out of their habitat because of deforestation; essentially if people don't take care of this issue these creatures will be extinct. They showed a baby orangutan in a cage reaching out his little fingers, and then i cried hysterically cause i felt so sad that these animals are suffering.
So i thought to myself, what the fuck am i doing with exercise science? I decided to go back to my original dream of working with wild and domestic animals and possibly going to vet school. So during christmas break of freshman year, my parents and i had a discussion about what i wanted to do and decided that i wouldn't go back to BU second semester and i would spend that time looking for and applying to schools that fit my needs. So i found Hofstra in Long Island and was set on going there, cause they had an awesome dance program and bio. I went to see it, i hated it. My friend Eric went there and he was also transferring out, but i got to visit him and that was fun to catch up and hang out. Soo i was like "omg where the hell am i gonna go?" Then found Roger Williams Univeristy...
(i'm gonna continue this in my next journal entry)
tanto amore,
Rachel |
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| let your warm hands break right through me... |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|01:23 am] |
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ok so it has been officially established that i am the worst person at updating my journal, buuut i've decided to drop a line to let those who care if i'm alive and well, know that i am alive and well. since about january 10th, a lot has changed in rachel's little world, but suprisingly i am slowly coming out on top, even though i'm sort of in limbo with my plans for the future, but in about two weeks i will be updating this journal, giving you, full throttle, the results of the re-evaluation of my life and my life plans :) this may not make much sense to anyone who's reading this right now, but everything will layout perfectly when i explain everthing in my next entry. i'll leave you all in suspense... ;)
truly yours,
Rachel |
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| my soul is painted like the wings of butterflies... |
[Dec. 28th, 2004|02:18 am] |
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I was reading Kait's journal, as I always love to do because I love Kaitlin and her mind- when I read her journal/inner thoughts, it just always makes so much sense to me. anyways, she was talking about how she feels like being home brings a feeling of never-ending adolecence. Today especially, I could not agree with that more.
Steve, his brother Dan, Dan's girlfriend Alex, and I went sledding in this glorious snow!!! Steve and Dan took us to a huge hill in Hamilton not too far from Steve's house, and I swear I could have sled all day. I just felt full of energy and it just gave me sheer joy to look upon the snow covered fields in the distance as the wind whipped cold, refreshing air into my face. The sun was in the process of setting and it just gleamed acrossed the untouched snow in the distance. It was one of those moments where you felt like you were in a painting or a national geographic photo. It was so cute too, because all these little kids were sledding down the giant hill and there was a black lab chasing the tubes downhill. I'm happy and proud to say that I will always be young at heart, but that mostly comes out when I'm home :)
Secondly, it was nice to see that us four were not the only big kids amongst all these little munchkins:) Weirdly enough, I heard a voice behind me say "well look who it is" and I turned around to see none other than Eric Brooks standing a few feet in front of me. We gave each other a huge hug, I mean after all this time, there isn't a spec of hard feelings between us, not so much even hard because when we broke up it was just more of a sad, inevitable event- I wanted a more mature and deeply committed love relationship, something he was not necessarily searching for. What's weird is after everytime I see Eric I always want to call him up and just apologize for how everything went down and that more than anything I was intentionally trying my best to avoid hurting him in any way possible. It didn't really work in my favor and I always just want to call him and apologize. Cause we were not meant to be as lovers, Steve is my true other half, yet Eric and I would be great friends I think. We just share this free spirited-ness, him more than I, but I think it would be a worthwhile friendship. Even though I'd like to, I feel kind of scared to call him up and ask to get together so I can have the chance to sincerely apologize, just because it's so in the past now, why bring it up? I dunno, I think I'd just feel better about it if I did, but I don't know if I will, especially because I don't want to weird Steve out, cause if I were him I'd probably get freaked out but I'm a very jealous person when it comes to Steve and only Steve. meh, we'll see what happens, Eric still has my samurai sword I let him borrow...haha oh well
I love winter nights, so beautiful outside and the moon reflects of the white snow and the air and sky are so crisp and clear. I can't take my eyes off the burning bright stars, I could just gaze at them for hours, and everything is so silent, nothing moves
Sex would be good right now,...actually i'm gonna go to bed cause I'm feeling very ill from the chicken fingers I ate today, good thing I'm going to the gym tomorrow :)
steve & rachel= true love yaaay :) "i've never loved before thee"
~Rachel |
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| when doves cry |
[Dec. 27th, 2004|12:32 am] |
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This has got to be one of my favorite analogies..."why do we scream at each other, this is what it sounds like when doves cry..." (by Prince) It just makes so much sense, and i can always picture this beautiful, pure, gentle, white dove with little wet tears, and because the dove is such a prominent symbol of peace, it's just such a crime for a dove to cry. like it's just such a sin, kind of like killing a puppy, it's just the most horrible thing ever. Prince wrote the song, and it's one of my favorite songs but there's a really awesome version of the song in Romeo + Juliet w/ leo and clair danes. In the movie a church choir sings it and a young black boy sings the lead part, but it's so fitting to the movie. it sounds awesome because the beginning has a church organ in it. I must say that Romeo + Juliet (the new version) is a captivating movie. Baz Lurmhan has got to be one the best directors ever. the way he made that movie, the cinematography, lighting-just the way the movie is put together and the music-is just amazingly done, like all other bazmark productions. it's so nice when you can truly appreciate the way the film is made and you just feel moved emotionally after watching it. i love it cause the movie is so dramatic and filled with love and passion which is how i wish everyday life were like. i hate how life can be so hum drum and routinized. I find sometimes that I get very bored with life and with people in general. Like i just look at people living their ordinary everyday lives and there's just no spice in it, apathy everywhere. If you can't be passionate about life, then what's the point? It's so important to to take time and just indulge in yourself, meaning who you are and what you stand for, emerging yourself in love, especially, but also in friendship, just having fun, music, dance- that's what it's all about. That's why Romeo + Juliet, the movie, is just so awesome. It portrays all these deep and emotional aspects of live- unconditional, undying love, extreme loyalty, pride, true companionship-exploding with passionate energy. so i guess what i'm saying is people shouldn't settle for mediocracy, BE VIVACIOUS!
PS Christmas was awesome, nothing better than being together with ALL the family. Santa was very good to me-GUCCI bag, the one thing i wanted most, my rents are the best...i mean santa. I've never been more in love with my baby, as the days go by, the sweeter love gets. Julieanne's party was awesome, i missed everyone and it was so much fun, so many laughs, ily dtown peeps! Hope everyone had a pleasant holiday! let it snow ;) |
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| "I'll be home for Christmas..." |
[Dec. 19th, 2004|08:23 pm] |
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This past week has turned from mentally exhausting and stressful (finals), to exciting and awesome!!! My aunt, uncle, two little cousins, and my great aunt came from italy saturday for a surprise christmas vacation visit!!!!!!!! I'm so pumped, I haven't seen them since I was in Rome for xmas of 2000-2001. It's so good to have my familia italiana here for the holidays until Jan 3rd!!! Besides that I only have one exam tomorrow and then i'm off for winter break, woo hoo!!!!!!
I went to Leanne's Christams show today and saw all my theats, jen, aleia, and lauren. Evryone looks really good and it was so nice to see them! I had seen jenny before though, cause we had a yummy lunch sesh at Vinny T's in Boston on tuesday. I also saw my cutie Kim and Miss Laura and Miss Erica. Miss Leanne looked fabulous as always and after christmas she told me to give her a call so we can get together and get things set for teaching in the summer!!!! I'm really really excited to teach hip hop :) I also saw Erica's boyfriend Jason!!!!!!! i haven't seen him since i stayed at Erica's in NYC during the summer '03. He asked me when i was going back down to Manhattan to chill with him and Erica, cause he has a new apt. Hopefully I'll be down there this vaca for a visit, that would be ideal :)
Well that's about it, I need to study for sociology, blahhh!!! can't wait to see all my dtown chicks (plus mike, ryan and zach) and go skiing!!!! Hope everyone has a merry Christmas, or happy holiday!!! and a happy new year, clink clink ;)
hugs n kisses
Rachel |
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| baby i'm a star |
[Oct. 27th, 2004|12:01 pm] |
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I made BU's lyrical dance team "Encore" :) it's a small select group of girls, we do lyrical and lyrical jazz and perform at like every dance type show happening at BU! i'm pumped cause now i get to dance and perform again, i'm also trying out for two hip hop teams, "Vibes" and "Fusion", at the beginning of November...we'll see how that goes i'll keep you updated...
check this out...
Though some dancers are employed on long-term contracts for professional dance companies, they are a minority. By far the majority are freelancers who audition for specific contracts to perform in music videos, television programs, rock tours, Broadway shows or other occasions. To succeed as a freelancer, a dancer needs an agent and in the US, the most important agents are located in the primary dance centers--New York and LA. (Their names and addresses are available at www.answers4dancers.com.) Dancers looking for an agent first submit résumés and photographs to the agents they are interested in. Those who pass this first cut will be offered the opportunity to audition for the agent. Although employers rarely hire dancers younger than 18 because of labor-law considerations, agents will sometimes take on younger dancers to groom them for later employment.
Dancers have to be available to their agents around the clock, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. Dance agencies frequently get calls in the morning from employers who want to audition 50 dancers in the afternoon, and a dancer who can show up at a moment’s notice is by far the most likely to get one of the jobs. This is why freelance dancers almost always live in New York or LA. Those who are far away simply can't get to the auditions in time.
okay so this info made me feel a couple of things....
One, i feel like i'll never have the chance at being a backup dancer for someone awesome like Britney or Janet which was one of my dreams because i'm stuck at college trying to get an awesome education. I'm not saying i definetely would make it if i auditioned, cause i know that's so not true because there are many incredible dancers out there...but i just feel so trapped. Like who's knows if i train really hard and meet the right people, I wouldn't be able to have a good shot at making my dream come true? I know the dance world is extremely competative, and a lot is based on who you know and luck. I'm not stupid. But i feel like if i don't pursue the dance career hardcore from the start i'll never have a chance at doing what i love. i mean i'm miserable not dancing everyday of my life like i used to. i really want to be dancing hardcore,INTENSE! i want it to be my life and just to be constantly rehearsing and going from audition to audition. i just feel so lost right now cause i don't know if i should just fuck everything and pursue dance and continue my education part time or whatever, cause i know i defintely want to get a excercise science degree/then PT degree, it's obviously the smart thing to do, no argument there.or do i really just wait four years and just train while i'm at school and then pursue a serious dance career? Or should i try to pursue it now? but that means the best way to do that is move to NYC, and how the hell am i gonna manage that? i need to talk to Leanne, my dance instructor and Erica, cause she has done things for MTV, she was a rockette and danced for the knicks. but if any of you dancers or anyone else has any input or advice it would be greatly appreciated, i just need some comfort because I feel confused and have no direction in thought. i think i need an agent
Rachel |
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| so much for the curse now! muahaha |
[Oct. 21st, 2004|10:30 am] |
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holy fuck! the sox are in the world series!!!! god bless papi and jesus damon!!!! KENMORE SQUARE WAS TOTAL MADNESS LAST NIGHT!!! IT WAS CRAZY!!! i live two blocks down from it, so of course at like 1am i checked out the rowdy drunken peeps trying to knock over poles and uproot trees!??? so many flashin lights, ahhh!! who's your daddy now yankees? papi's your daddy biatches! god bless the red sox! |
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[Oct. 14th, 2004|11:45 am] |
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Last night was sweet!!! The red sox didn't win, which blows, but i did get to see my d-town girl janelle @ northeastern! yaay for us bostonians!!!! her dorm is so cute, she has a hot pink comforter which matches my hot pink sheets-we're so connected haha i met a bunch of her guy friends and two girl friends, i forget their names cause there were so many of them and i'm bad with names when i first meet people :( but janelle hangs out with all the guys on the floor below, (they were pumped janelle was finally bringing another girl around haha nell) all of them were wicked nice and i got to steal a scrumpcious ice cream sandwhich out of one of their freezers! why is this exciting you ask? well because ice cream makes me happy :) i'm surprised i'm not a fat cow, guess i can thank all my dance and aerobic classes, plus working out, and walking 500 miles to class everyday! so no people don't be jealous, i am not one of those lucky people whose metabolism is through the roof, (aka my boyfriend, lucky poop), i work hard, grr!!! then we chilled with steve and jay, our d-town boys to watch the sox lose to the yankees again! fuck the yankees! i love nyc but i don't love the yankees, i loathe them in fact. i really thought we were gonna come back in the top of the ninth when my fav player ORTIZ!!! was up to bat. but no go :( don't worry sox fans, we still have two more games to not suck :)
for the first time this morning i actually went to breakfast at the dining hall. Usually i just eat a special K bar before i go to class or if it's a 11 or 12 am class i'll eat my total!!! so healthy for you! but this morning janelle had to be at class at 10:35 so she walked me to the T at like 10 and i headed back to my dorm via green line. so since i was out and about and hungry, (obviously i was hungry) i got french toast and a banana yum yum!!! and now i don't have any classes today, cause my only class got cancelled!!! yaaay!!! but i'm heading to the library in 10 cause i have to work on this ridiculous gloss for humanities, ahhh!!!
amore & bacis
Rachel
P.S. Steve and I are taking ballroom dance classes together this summer, so if anyone knows a good place for this that they've been to (cause i know you're all expert salsa dancers) let me know! |
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[Oct. 11th, 2004|06:42 pm] |
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woah i totally forgot about this so i'm just gonna quickly update cause i honestly don't feel like writing a full-fledged journal right now. BU is amazing, i'm doing well in school, boston is the best city to go to school in, so many parties and clubs!!!!! :) i have dance on thursdays, they're really awesome classes, and since i didn't go to the first couple meetings of Dance Theatre Group, i won't be doing the show this fall, but i'll be performing for the spring festival :) and i'll be taking open classes at jeannette's for hip-hop, woo hoo, thank God:) i have aerobics and another stretch & sculpt class which i love :) who ever said freshman 15, lied! i actually lost a noticable amount of weight since i've been to school haha but besides that junior year i start my minor in dance, and my major in excercise science so then i can be a PT. Physical therapy, well at least that's the plan for now, it's definetely custom to change, but i feel really good about it so we'll see :) November 6th is me and Steve's one year! woo hoo! it's amazing how much you can love someone and you just never stop loving them, each day you just notice how perfect they are again and again, nothing can compare- it's so sweet to be in love :) thank you steve
i came home for columbus day weekend, nice to be back home :) friday i drove to RI and picked steve up, took frigin 3 hours!!! cause of damn traffic, i hate traffic so much. then we chilled over the weekend, and went to brett's party saturday night, it was nice to see steve's friends and drink really cheap vodka,(poland spring's vodka) with ace- haha, i didn't even know poland springs made vodka!!!!??? i didn't even chase which was the amazing part, but hey like all alchohal, it starts to taste better the more you drink it as the night goes on :) sunday we went to newburyport with dan and alex, i ate 4 and 1/2 pieces of pizza, i'm getting rusty! i saw my girlie johnna which was awesome, we chilled with steve and watched 'mean girls'-cute movie. literally the both of them tucked me into bed cause i was so tired and left at like 1 ish. it was a really great weekend, and i miss steve so much already, it sux, i cried :(
so anyways, i'm still getting adjusted to everything and figuring stuff out, especially with dance, feel out what i wanna do with things and where i want to be with myself, so hopefully everything will all turn out good :) hope everyone is having fun at college! see you all thanksgiving :)
hugs n kisses
Rachel |
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[Oct. 1st, 2004|12:52 am] |
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ok i'm really bad at this updating business haha...i will this weekend, college life of me !!! BU baby!!!
love that dirty water!!!!!
muah,
Rachel |
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| GiRLs jUsT wAnNa HaVe fUn!!! |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|11:14 pm] |
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jenn's party was really fun, i really enjoyed just relaxin on the beach, sittin around a fire with my girls and guys (not to mention my lovley bf)...i'm gonna miss all my girlies-my angels-my sexy hot mamas, soooooooo much. some of you aren't going very far, like right next door to me in boston, but some of you are going to Philly or Maine or DC!!!! it was so awesome to see my chicks tonight, and i'm going to miss jenn a ton!!! but i know you'll all do wonderfully at college and we'll all pretty soon be partyin' it back up at thanksgiving, to go crazy DANCIN club style on lansdown st.!! woo hoo!i love you girls and i'm going to miss you! remember i'm always here if you need me, you know the number ;)
much love
ra ra rachel |
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[Aug. 16th, 2004|11:43 pm] |
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*so don't go away
say what you'll say
say that you'll stay
forever and a day
in the time of my life
cause i need more time
yes i need more time....*
right before you say goodbye to someone, you can never hold on to them long enough, and i feel afraid. i'm very excited to go to college, meet my roomates, decorate my dorm, classes, boston, etc. yet i don't want to be away from steve. that whole part of me is scared as hell, because i won't be only 15 minutes away from the person i need the most. both of us have promised not to talk about or get sad over college until we have to leave, which is only three weeks. the summer just flew by and i feel like time gets stolen for us. this is probably the only thing that will be hard when going to college, i mean my family is forever, but steve is not guaranteed to be forever. but no matter what, i really think we'll be okay. these past 9 months have been incredible, why the hell would i give that up? and i honestly don't give a fuck about what anyone says about how relationships don't last through college, blah blah blah, cause that's bullshit. i know how we feel about each other, and just cause i'm meeting a ton of new people at college doesn't mean i'm looking for a new boyfriend. that part of my life is perfect, there is no need for change. and when we do see each other on the weekend, our time together will be awesome. i know i can't predict the future, but whatever happens, i know that i love you baby so much and there is nothing i wouldn't do for you. and although we are an hour apart, i'll always be here whenever you need me, i'm always with you in your heart and you in mine. i'm gonna miss you so much and i love you, somethings will never change.
with all my heart,
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| bermuda :) |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|01:25 am] |
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it's been a while, but i've been a busy little bee...okay that's a lie, you all know i'm really lazy and just haven't taken the effort to update. last week i went to beruda on a cruise! bermuda is GORGEOUS, and the people are so polite. i suppose it's because they make all of their money off of us tourist but still, they're so incredibly nice. the cruise ship made me sick which wasn't a whole lot of fun, but once we got to the island, i had a very good time-what could be better than sipping on bacardi (legally heh heh) on a pink beach with crystal blue waters? the only downer was that i really missed steve :( i didn't get to talk to him much cause calling from bermuda was like 1.49/min. it's weird cause i was on a beautiful island soaking up the sun, but i wasn't with steve, so it's just not as good. talk about attachment haha anyways, i was happy to be home after riding back on a very rocky boat, people were throwing up-the middle of the ocean is no fun. and when i got home i ha da HUGE bouquet of flowers on my bureau from my boy plus a new japanese fighting fish, cause mine had a tragic accident the day before i left :(
here's the traumatic iccident...i was cleaning his bowl and when i went to scoop him out of this bowl he kind of jumped out so he landed in the sink and slid down into the garbage disposal!!! rachel to the rescue, except i was probably more scared than the fish at this point, i didn't want my little guy to die. so like a smart cookie i am i turned on the water in the sink so he wouldn't suffocate down there and put my hand down to catch him. well he kept squirming around so he cut the ends of his fins and when i finally got him out of there he was a little beat up but ALIVE! so i cleaned his bowl and put him back in, the poor little guy. well then the next day i noticed he looked a little pale (and yes fish do get pale) probably because he was so traumatized. and i was right he was dying, and die he did in the next couple of hours :( i was so bummed out, RIP yoshi.
things have been good since i got home, i missed kait's party unfortunately because i was still coming home from the cruise :( hope you had an awesome time kait :) i bougth a new lap top, soooooo cute, i love it! i still need to get all my stuff for school! bedding and bath etc. i'm so excited, one of my classe besides the basics is pointe class!!! and i have a "sculpt and stretch" class :) i couldn't get hip hop or pilates cause classes were full, but i'll just take hip hop at janette's :) i dunno i'm still trying to plan out my dance stuff, i definetely want to do the competetion team, so wish me luck! i'm still kind of nervous about school, not cause i don't want to go, cause i love it, i just don't have anything ready, so once i'm all set, i'll be very relieved.
let me know when everyones leaving, so i don't miss anyone before they go, i'm not leaving until sept 5th, so i'm probably one of the lasts to go.
bye my loves
Rachel |
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[Jul. 18th, 2004|01:32 am] |
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i should update more huh....
welll, i have a lot of energy right now, ahhhhh!!!!! and it's 12:53 and i have work tomorrow at 9 so i should probably hit the cloud pretty soon, yes my bed is so comfortable, i call it my cloud :) anyways, this week has been pretty entertaining, i worked all week, but on thursday night me and steve went to fridays and i saw danvers peeps, it was awesome...and if you think you're being healthy like me and order a nice big salad instead of a chicken finger blt, don't do it! i was so pissed after ordering a salad instead of what i really wantd, it doesn't pay to be skinny haha it pays to be a mumu and order a chicken finger blt...besides that, what i was getting to was that i saw jackie, mike (i miss him so much!!!), and with him was megan and meredith, and as i was standin in the aisle talking to mike, i heard behind me someone say "rachel mielcarek!" it was julia!
i forgot how much i loved starbursts...when you're little you always wanted to buy candy and it was like the best thing in the world, i remember loving to go to richdale and there would just be a plethora of candy, ooooo so good, so when me and steve went to cvs i got starburts and was just so happy by the sheer fact that now i'm old enough that i can buy as much candy as i want and no one can stop me haha, actually we had a little party in cvs, we saw Kayla and Kristen working together and then Whalen strolled in, that kid is so awesome
shopping is the best thing in the world, there is nothing better than a good shopping day, which i had thursday with my 225 dollar gift certificate from crane beach for being such a good employee :) in reality i met quota 9 times and i get a 25 dollar gc for each time i reach it, how nice of the trustees to send me on shopping sprees and give me checks, yaay :) i got this cute skirt from abercombie, cool shit from express, o0o0o the glory when you walk out of those store and manage to get shoes all within 125 dollars, the day is mine!!! (be proud steve heh heh)
i started reading the godfather, best book in the world, mad props to me for being italian!!!
*for a good time watch dane cook
*anchorman was HILARIOUS, "i'll punch you in the ovaries, right in the baby maker" hahahahaha
tonight finished off nicely, me and steve stayed at the beach after i got out of work and i swam in my sports bra and underwear, i looked hott!!! haha, seriously though, me and steve are so apart of each other, now i know why we can be so weird together and it all makes sense to us, you can fit us together like a puzzle :) i love you
and mike called me tonight but i missed his call, and then when i did call him shortly after, his phone was off, so mike if you see this call me!!!!
goodnight kiddies,
Rachel |
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[Jul. 8th, 2004|01:06 am] |
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maine was perfect. i went up last thursday with steve and his family. steve's cabin is right on the lake so i basically went swimming everyday, tanning on the dock/floats when it was nice (which was most of the time), played croquet-i'm so addicted to it now!, tubing and water skiing!! i was so proud of myself, because i had never water skiied before and the boat actually pulled me right up, although when i fell i got the biggest wedgy ever :( haha...we (meaning me, steve, dan, and lex aka alex aka dan's girlfriend) played catchphrase, which was new to me and lex, but was also very entertaining when played at 12-ish, 1-ish am... it was just so awesome, couldn't have asked for a better time with my baby. steve also bought me a ring and two toe rings , they're so pretty :)maine was just what i needed, and amazingly enough, when you think you've gotten the closest you could possibly be to a person, you fall in love again, butterflies and all, and become a little bit closer through the simple and beautiful things in life, like waking up next to each other or marvelling at the sunset from a canoe in the middle of the lake..."it feels so amazing, to hold everything you've ever wanted, in your arms"...
i really haven't seen anyone or talked to anyone lately, so hopefully everyone had a good fourth of july weekend
tomorrow i start pilates up again, i'm so pumped, i can't stand not working out hardcore all the time, i miss dance so much, but pilates makes me super human heh heh, now that i'm back from vaca, i can hit up the gym non-stop, makes me feel so good
i also have a closing though..although someone may be older than you and will tell you that they have more experience and this is the way things are blah blah, don't always believe them. i've learned from mistakes i've made in the past, which has taught me not to be so naive and has sharpened my abilites to read people and their motives, but i've also decided that i should trust what i feel is right. just because someone tells you that they know better about how the world works, in particular guys, doesn't mean they really do. for instance my boss. he's a nice guy and i respect him a lot, but he'll give me advice on how things are in the world, especially guys, etc. and most of the time, his theories or explanations prove to vaildate themselves, but in reality his perspectives on life are seen through a different lens than my own. it's good to take the advice in, but he's not 100% right about everything, because people aren't as shallow as he says they are, maybe he is, but i like to have a little more faith in human kind and would like to believe that i posess a greater depth than the average shmoe.
goodnight dumplings
*Rachel* |
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[Jun. 21st, 2004|02:56 pm] |
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| | *what it's like..//britney spears | ] |
my new cell :)
508-527-9078 |
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[Jun. 13th, 2004|11:16 pm] |
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| | *all nite//janet jackson | ] |
attention sexy biatches :) saturday the 26th which is not this sat but the next, i'm going to have a ladies night (sex and the city woo hoo) at my house, but i want to know if that's a good night for everyone, if there's a better night for everyone let me know, because this date is definetely subject to change...i need to call julieanne and eleni cause i don't know what their scheds are.......comment and let me know or call my new cell 978-527-9078
lo0o0ve,
Rachel |
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[Jun. 7th, 2004|05:29 pm] |
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| | *love song//311 | ] |
Since i'm working so hard at work right now, i decided it would be a good time to update, since so much has happened in last week/weekend. last wednesday, we had our senior reception at the yacht club. turned out to be a really good time: yearbooks, pictures, and so much dancing-which is always the best part, you know me :) friday night was steve's prom, it was soooo much fun, a better time than my own haha. everyone looked so pretty and i got many compliments, especially on my dress, which means all the primping and beautifying paid off haha. after the prom we stayed at nick's beach house on wingersheak (sp) beach in gloucester. an absolute good time, thanks guys! and thanks baby for such a fun night, and for watching me fall in the sand haha....after a whole night of no sleep, i went home in the morning for graduation!!! woo hoo, congrats dhs class of 2004, we made it!!! then back to mi casa for a little grad fiesta, carvel ice cream cake, mmmmm! steve got me a gold belly button ring, with stars and dangling gold things, soo pretty :) and he loved his gold bracelet i got him, i was pumped.
sunday morning i had my piano recital at 130 which went very well. after, i sped off to steve's to congratulate him on his graduation. hung out there with his family for his party, they're all so nice. then went with steve to his friend bobby's house, and chilled there for a short time.
i missed project graduation saturday night because i had the recital sunday morning, so hope everyone had a good time, too bad i had to miss out, o well. now that everything is done i can just enjoy the summer. dance recital is coming up next week, sooo excited about that.
funny thing is, although i've graduated and all that shit, i'm still not feeling emotional yet, i dunno maybe because i've been so busy lately and haven't spent much time with my friends yet but i dunno, i don't really feel close to anyone right now, i mean there are a few friends that i feel close with, so no one get offended, i just mean it's not like it used to be. i work a lot and dance a lot so during the week i can never do those monday night things and i dunno i just feel kind of out of the circle per say, but not due to anyone's fault cause i'm not left out, i just don't feel connected for some reason. i'm sure it will pass as i spend more time with my friends over the summer. meh, just been thinking about it since all graduation stuff is happening, cause i remember when i watched my brother graduate, it seemed everyone was so close and him and his group of friends were inseparatable. like expectation vs fulfillment, it's not what i expected it to be (the bonding with friends thing), and i just feel more dissapointed, not upset, cause i'm really happy right now. whatever, things will figure themselves out on their own, meanwhile i'm going to go crazy this summer :)
ps going to have a girl's night soon, so kait, johnna, jenn, etc. let me know what are good night's for you if you read this and then i'm going to get in touch with eleni and julieanne & others to see what they're up to, let me know sexy ladies ;) |
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[May. 31st, 2004|12:27 pm] |
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...And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
Singing "everybody wake up, it's time to get down"
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever
So we can stay like this forever
And we'll never miss a party
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen
to anyone about anything
cause it's all been done and it's all been said
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
The hell out of this town
Find some conversation
The low fuel lights been on for days
It doesn't mean anyhting
I've got another 500 another 500 miles
before we shut this engine down,
we shut it down
...Just jealous cause we're young and in love
and so summer begins, can't wait til this week is over, then i'll be free to enjoy my days |
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| moving on.... |
[May. 22nd, 2004|02:33 am] |
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| | *100 years//five for fighting | ] |
the littlest things make me happy, one of those being cell phone ring tones! (pathetic as it may seem) dougie fresh, (this kid who works at Carter's sometimes w/ us) has "big poppa" on his phone, it made my day! i can't wait to get my new one! so i can download ring tones but the best part about the phone is.....(drum roll)...it goes all crazy when the phone rings, it lights up all different colors :)
i can't stand perverted old men, haha, i mean really though, they're just so disgusting, it makes me want to throw up. i have to deal with them while working at the jewelry store, EWWWWWWWWW, so gross, they're just so nasty, i mean NASSSSSSSTAAAAY, pleh
only three more days left of highschool, though i don't believe it has hit me yet. i'm so happy to get out of there, that i haven't even allowed myself to become sentimental about it. i dunno, obvioulsy i'm going to miss all my friends, i love them all so much, mad love to you guys :) but i feel it's about time that life moved on. there's just so much i want to do with my life, and college opens a myriad of doors to happiness and success in most cases.
but i also feel that i'm not ready to take on the real world, cause after these next three months, that's it.i'm happy to move on in many ways, because it's time, but i'm just worried about things not working out for me. i feel sort of out of control of my own life, and i hate not being able to stay on the ball and manage my crazy schedule and do everything well like i used to. i just want to feel ready and have a sense of direction. one of the problems is that i'm torn. because i'd really just like to move to nyc and dance and all that crazy shit, but i feel like i have to stay grounded because my hopes are not what you'd consider a stable job. and it confuses me because no one should have to put on hold the thing they love most and stay grounded because "going for it" involves risk taking and luck. i just feel like i could be something more than what i'm gearing my studies to. but maybe i'm wrong :( i dunno things will fall into place i just wish i could be a litte more clear-headed.
have a good day everyone :)
Rachel |
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